A moment of truth for me. Real talk. I have trust issues. I have had tons of disappointment
lately and I have found myself begging God to give explanation for some things that just really don't make sense in my life right now. Please God, just lift this weight of heaviness from me. I even say the words, I trust you Lord and try to mean them. Brutal honesty here...I was just praying the desperate prayers of a broken hearted soul wanting relief. I really wasn't in communication with God because I was enjoying Him or his presence. I wanted relief.
So this begs the question: Can we just settle in and have peace and still have unanswered questions in our life?
So much needs explaining...But really, does it?
Do I have to have all the answers for all the things that are happening, or can I trust God?
I think the real question is WILL I trust God? Not what I wanted to hear but EXACTLY what I needed to hear. It all comes down to trusting God for everything and in everything.
Oh here comes another hard question...
Can you really be in a relationship with someone you don't trust?
NOPE- NOT ME- I ain't doing it. I'm not letting you in very far at all if I don't trust you.
(Apologies for the bad grammar)
So, how far does God get with our heart if we don't trust Him?
Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
Let's break it down here. Let's look at the commands in the verses above.
Trust- assured reliance on the character, abilities or truth of someone or something (Webster).
Do you know the character of God ? He's a good God. He has your best interest at heart. He will never leave you or forsake you. He knows all of your needs.
Lean- to incline, bend, deviate.
What are you bending your ear to in times of heartache and disappointment? This word in the Webster also means to cast to one side for support. Are we leaning on the word of emotions and our hurt or are we leaning into God's word? Or even better...Is someone bending your ear? Is the enemy right there to tell you how justified you should be in your lack of trust and focus on God in your situation? His voice to me sounds like this: You have every right to deviate and feel the way you feel. It's only natural to question in times like these...Blah, Blah, Blah.
Here's some truth for ya. The moment we try to justify ourself...we are no longer under His righteousness but we are putting back on the cloak of our own righteousness. What does the word say about our righteousness? It is filthy rags. Ouch.
This next one is my personal favorite!
Acknowledge- to recognize the rights and, authority or status of, to take notice of, or to make known. My heart jumps up and down at this one! I could just do a mic drop right here.
Recognize in all your ways that we have authority in Christ and the ability in Christ to put our trust in Him in All things! Recognize that HE holds the power and spiritual status to provide for you exactly what you need. Right now He is providing for you.
In the broken relationship-
In the loss and times of feeling misunderstood-
In being falsely accused-
In doing the things that you feel ill-equipped to do-
In taking the heat for something that you didn't feel like taking the heat for-
Or maybe the most important thing- In the blunder you made in trying to fix something that you were never meant to fix. So many things are not ours to fix or to carry.
Those things are pretty specific for me but I feel like they are universal. It applies to all.
My heart today is to trust God. He really is the only relationship that matters. He will bring all things to order in our life in His timing. Meanwhile....I can settle into Him. I can lean into His word and His truth. I can have peace.
Commit your way to the LORD; trust him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noon day sun. Psalms 37:5-6
Settle into the life of unanswered questions and peace with God. By Faith...You aren't hanging in I was recently told, You are being held.